One + one = one

When joy and innocence were not enough for me, I wonder about you. It is not like I was not okay on my own but I needed something more. I was incomplete and would NOT go on living like that.

A hundred reasons made me step back a considerable amount of times and excuses made me go right to the wrong side. In every corner ferocious storms knocked me down and the wind blew all my hopes away. But I kept on looking for you. I walked and I even run until one day, tired of questions without answers, I sat wondering why it was so hard to find you – although, to be hones, I didn’t even know if you were real, I just wanted to believe that you were not only part of my dreams, I had the conviction that somewhere, someday I would finally find you.
I stood up and continued my walk, anxiously hoping to see you around the next corner.

Nights and days flew away and I was still alone. Walking, thinking, wandering.
One evening, one night or morning – who cares, stunned by the sound of the clock needles, I saw you crossing the street, coming in my direction. I had been so worried about finding you that I did not realize that I was contemplating the right pair of eyes.
You didn’t recognize me either that day, but then we met again in numerous circumstances, always in the same place and at the same time. Until, used to seeing the same faces over and over again, we made the conclusion that it was not something that was happening by chance. And even though we were sure about it, the fear of making a mistake left us speechless, and we decided to let time and destiny play their cards.

The years passed by and every time I had the chance to see your eyes I was more and more convinced that you were the element I needed to complete my part. But again the clock told us it was not the right time and we chose to take the road of patience, walking with the confidence that nothing would ever be able to separate us. Knowing that someday, when time and date were on our side we would be able to be together, and that way build the puzzle of life and love and whys.

Ahora

A pesar del tiempo y de las idas y vueltas; acá estamos.Al fin y al cabo quedamos siempre en el mismo lugar. Con la misma valentía o quizás el mismo miedo de seguir parados; esperando.
Siempre estuvo latente la ilusión.Y ahora no sé si es por mí, por vos o por quién; pero yo quiero seguir esperando.

Cuando me frustro

Y a pesar de todos los intentos de positividad, las mudas voces me siguen gritando que no puedo!
Cuantos intentos fallidos son necesarios para darme cuenta que solo los perdedores ganan? Perdería mi vida por tu causa y para mí (y para vos) éso sería solo una ganancia.
Solo VOS me hacés sentir bien, porque aunque soy NADA me amás y diste todo por mí.
Que afortunada!


Una vez más, y de manera redundante, te digo gracias por hacerme sentir especial.
Y mil veces más, perdón. Vossiempresabésporqué.

* Fil 1.21

Un día

Un día común, uno cualquiera pero único. 
Una elección, una desición y un cambio.
Una persona y otra persona. El uno y el otro pero uno solo.
Y la paciencia siempre presente.
Y la prisa, y la prisa que gritaba. 
Pero..no, todavía no; yo pensaba.
Y así fue como un día pasó.
Fue ayer o mañana.
No sé si lo viví, si lo ví o lo leí.
Realmente no sé pero pasó.
Y ahora ya está, solo queda confiar.
Si al fin y al cabo lo único que importa es Su voluntad.

En un instante

En un instante todo puede cambiar. Quedamos atónitos sin saber por qué pasó. Necesitamos una respuesta, exigimos una explicación, pero seguimos sin entenderlo. Decidimos culpar al destino. Culpar a las circunstancias. Culpar a lo que sea para apagar el dolor.
Pero en situaciones como ésta, ni las más ilustradas razones, ni el consuelo más convencedor sirven para cerrar la herida.

Y es ahí cuando ya no nos quedan palabras para describir lo que sentimos.

RIP Fiamma.

Element

I don't remember how was my life without it nor what it was like to be the lonely one.
It seems you get used quickly to good things.
Anyway.. what worries me is not to know what it was like to live without that very important element of my life but what my life would be without it.

En todo momento

Cuando mi vida parece ser una soga llena de nudos imposibles de desatar..
Cuando el silencio es tanto que me aturde y lastima mis días..
Cuando miro alrededor y me encuentro sola entre millares de personas..
Cuando no tengo fuerzas, ni aliento ni ganas de seguir..
En todo momento sé que estás.

Y me basta con saber eso para darme cuenta que sos por la única razón por la que vivo,
y por el único motivo por el que quiero seguir caminando.

[Psalms 5.11]

Need to find out who I am.

Every single day I walk on a different road.
I find out that everything is new to me every time I wake up.
I forget who I am and have no idea where I come from.
I don't know what I am doing here. I don't even know where I do have to go.
Confussion overtakes me.
Is it the end or the beginning?.
Am I alone? Is there anyone out there?.
Did yesterday exist? Is this the present? Will there be a tomorrow?
Too many questions, too many fears.

But then.. but then I hear your voice saying I'm your child.
And that's when I start to listen the clock's sound, and when I realize I don't belong here but that it's necessary for me to stay until you tell me it's the end.

It was not that hard.

It's kind of a strange feeling at first, you don't get used to it quickly.
But hold on, be patient.
Many times what you get it's not what you want but, trust me, you'll get used to it as I did.
It's not about getting used to something you don't like, but letting yourself fall in the wonderful roads of reality.
Everything down here has got something good, you just need to get a way to finding it.

I guess I made it.
And in a future day there may be waves but I must say the skies have never looked so clear.